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Monday, July 24, 2006


seriously.. it has been almost two weeks since i last blogged.. tired of the whole thing sia.. of life mainly.. well mabbe can see dat i have a lot on my mind lately.. blocking out de things which i dun wanna face.. forgeting lots of things.. i dun show it out.. mabbe i juz dun like to show moi true emotions.. it makes me feel vunerable.. i prefer to keep moi thoughts private.. i like to keep dem inside me.. i dun like to talk bout moi feelings much.. perhaps in words in writing im able to express moiself better.. perhaps i shld try to open up moiself.. shld let moi feeling flow out but i cant bring moiself to do it.. even to the bestest of moi friends although i do trust n luv dem veri much.. nt for other reasons.. nt tat i dun wan to let ya all noe.. but moi own prob.. perhaps blogging let u all noe me better.. as i dun normally say the things which i write in moi blog.. u all muz read den u noe de things happening to me.. perhaps mabbe im a person who is dificult to understand.. mabbe wo ye bu neng liao jie zi ji.. i cant expect others to liao jie wo..

或许对我来说醒着的生活是一场梦... 一场我想结束的恶梦...

或许我在想一天又一天的生活意义浅淡..
爸爸这两个字已对我来说是一种痛..
我知道你惦记着我..
毕竟我是你的女儿..
可是你的疼爱我已无法承担...
毕竟是你亲手彻底毁灭了我对你的信任..
我不恨你..
只是我不想面对你..
我不想谈..
我不想承认..
我的生活已回不了过去的快乐..
我不想正面去面对你..
因为我知道我没那么坚强..
我只是强忍着痛..
无视..
已经是我对事物的逃避..
逃避我真正的感觉..
逃避所有人的眼光,,
我不想沉闷在伤痛中..
开朗的面对外界..
已是我拆不下的面具..
内心的痛或许只有我自己去了解..
我不想让我的心情去影响他人的情绪..
我周围人的快乐对我很重要..
因为你们要比我活得更好..
让我觉得这世上还是有温暖..
所以不要担心我..
或许给我一段时间..
我会克服这段难期..
因为有你们关心我..
或许就是我最好的推动力.....

Just another day @ 8:19 PM

Wednesday, July 12, 2006


close to one week nvr update le.. lol.. quite bz.. oso lazy lah.. dunno wat to write.. anywayz.. last fri went cs instead to watch silent hill wif moi classmates.. lol.. nt bad lah de show.. onli one part realli kena shocked diao.. its mainly gross lah.. nt exactly scary.. sat n sun workin.. as usual lor.. sat is lao ban sun auntie siew mei.. nt realli bz might b coz of de sch holi over le.. three counter crew.. me auntie irene auntie mary.. lol.. lao ban gave us our 90 bucks le.. for dunno wat thing de lah.. siew li din get hers.. lol.. n she see lao ban more den us.. coz she so huai dan.. lol.. alwayz late.. so lao ban wan to retain hers for a while.. so we nt supposed to tell her we gt ours.. if nt she sure nag de.. lol.. sat moi yi ma n uncle n biao ge biao sao came.. along wif de two xiao gua.. lol.. dey eat bk.. wah.. gave dem 20% discount sia.. but dey left b4 i finish moi thing.. coz i writing time card for tian.. coz lao ban say dou handwriting nt nice de.. moi handwriting nicer so he ask me write lor.. hope dey dun sae moi handwriting small can le.. like last time.. ming ming its nt i write de lor.. si raymond kept sayin its i write de coz moi handwriting is small.. pls.. hen ming xian lor.. moi handwriting is nt liddat de.. in de end found out dey yuan wang wo.. its ying n mariana write de.. lol.. dis time i jing liang write big big le.. n i make ji hao for dem le.. auntie yoke chan say can.. wah.. i dunno le.. muz next sun den noe.. lol.. sun almost cannot tong bang ah guan van.. coz i start 6 so have to tong bang ah guan van mah.. if nt how i reach at 6 am sia.. driver is ah guan fren.. lol.. ah dou dunno ah guan went KL so she went to call him.. wahaha.. den ah guan slping.. but he gave her his fren num.. so in de end i reach store at 5 lor.. lol.. also nt bz lah..auntie mary veri ke ai.. on sat she gave me one small koala bear.. kawaii~.. den sun she gave me n dou choc.. lol.. well feel tat i realli gen auntie mary hen you yuan.. she veri teng wo.. lol.. n she veri ke ai n funny oso.. she always help me scold lao ban.. lol.. n every i work she sure will come de.. she say de.. lol.. ke ai.. nice rite.. oh n manager schedule gt le.. ah dou had to qing shoben drink starbucks den he give.. lol.. no need ask frm chris le.. she always closing see her nt much.. plus yi feng will be dere de lor.. next week she closin again see her she sure ask gt xiang wo ma.. lol.. sure de.. world cup end le.. italy won.. lucky i nvr bet wif raymond sia.. he say italy win i say france.. he say i win he qing wo eat sakae.. he win i qing ta eat chicken rice.. lol.. but i den dun want sia.. if i win he pei me go eat.. if i lose i have to pei him go eat.. both i chi kui.. have to pei him.. den dun wan sia.. lol.. aft work me siew li n dou went to eat sakae.. lol.. you qian ren rite.. siew li had to fork out 20 bucks.. wahaha.. we force de.. N AH DOU BROUGHT A KAWAII NE~ POOH BEAR 4 ME.. kawaii.. lol.. happi happi.. haha.. mon ok lor normal sch dae.. but found out i gt 94 for moi A&P.. happi happi.. n ate dinner wif ah dou.. tues n today oso mon eat LJS den tues ate pizza hut.. lol.. went library wif za n dou today went eat sumo house den go ntuc shop shop.. lol.. we feng le.. haha.. but realli when go out for family outing.. zaza.. u noe i waiting for u to jio everybody.. dun lazy le.. quick quick.. lol.. k lah blog till here lor.. next week or when i free den blog ba..

[ 好多开心的画面 都是你微笑的脸... ]

Just another day @ 9:05 PM

Thursday, July 06, 2006


sobz.. sad sia.. moi programming mst.. 3 mcqs juz 3 can get full marks le onli gt 88.. y muz i make such silly mistakes.. haiz.. mcq is supposed to help.. haiz.. anatomy also liddat.. but happy dat mct nt bad.. 84.. i thot i will get low marks sia.. din expect it.. but mct is mcq help me.. lol.. i gt all correct.. so moi mst all pass le.. yeh.. pass can le.. moi gems gt 87 for moi quiz.. lol.. all pass.. yeh.. so i juz have to work harder for moi sem exam.. esp on moi BI n Maths.. haiz.. Maths gt 57.. tmr friday le.. gg out watch movie wif moi classmates tmr.. lol.. at marina square.. lol.. nt bad sia.. almost like class outing sia.. lol.. anywayz moi new blogskin kawaii ne~.. zaza sae de top one is her.. second one is me third one ah dou.. lol.. nt enuf for all de DKGZQV.. so muz share share.. lol.. two share one.. de pic so ke ai right.. tats y i chose it.. ke ai.. haiz.. anyway dis blogskin dedicated to DKGZQV.. frenz 4 eva!! wahaha.. k la blog till here.. bb..

[ 我已经转身了，可是却发现你已不在我身后守护着我... ]

Just another day @ 11:01 PM

Tuesday, July 04, 2006


hihi.. waha.. gt back BI paper n A&P paper.. wah.. miracle sia.. i din fail moi BI.. wahaha.. so happy sia.. i thot i totally blank out sure fail le.. in de end i gt 57.. lol.. heng.. nvr fail already veri happy.. A&P is moi most man yi paper le.. but i feel i so stupid sia.. bcoz i gt 3 mistake for de stupid mcq i lost 9 marks.. n i cld have gotten full marks.. sob sob.. stupid 3 mcq.. so i gt 91.. moi section B n C all full marks.. but actually he mark quite leniently le.. so nice.. wahaha.. ok muz strive for distinction for moi a&p.. jia you bah!! tmr might get back maths n thurs might get nack oop n mct.. haiz.. oop i think can.. mct haiz.. wun fail de.. but.. hope bah.. maths i hope will nt fail.. lol.. but i dun think will bah.. working on a new blogskin lol.. man ke ai de.. the design already done juz de coding part.. lol.. gt new assignment for moi GEMS.. muz pass up week 14.. ahh.. so fast.. but quite jian dan.. coz learn b4 in f&n le.. plan a day meal for vegetarians.. lol.. angie if i dunno i ask u kkz.. wahaha.. when go k box.. i wan qing zhu moi MST finish.. zaza quick jio wo qu.. ask ah ma gie n dou along.. wahaha.. second family outing.. or if not we dun go k bx coz qiuey dun like.. hmm qiuey wan come?? zaza ask her.. we all go out.. wahaha.. looking forward to u all de reply kkz.. dou muz come kkz.. lol.. k blog till here..

[ 我答应你，我会一直在你身后守护着你， 只要你转身就能够看到我... ]

Just another day @ 8:43 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006


heyz..fridae de BI MST wo fail ding le..totally blank out aft i go in haiz.. cannt remember anything.. lost like 40 marks le bah.. slim chance will pass.. haiz.. today n yest i opening.. yest angie came.. zaza ps us sia.. so bad.. sob.. pei gie study a bit den go home le lor.. we two tok a lot crap sia.. we want go k box lol.. zaza pei me kkz.. lol.. today me dou n tian opening.. tian full shift.. lol.. coz she change wif auntie siew mei yest.. haiz.. mi n dou din manage to get manager schedule frm chris lol.. coz yi feng was dere.. no chance to teh her.. but expected yi feng will be dere lah.. today quite bz better den yest crowd came at 12 liddat.. poor me n ah dou have to qing raymond chi fan.. coz we were betting when xihui will come.. i sae 1220.. dou sae 1230 raymond sae 1215.. in de end raymond won.. irritating xihui came early.. lol.. so we have to qing raymond one meal each.. but coz today mai fan he haven pay me so dang zuo i qing ta.. he ask ah dou to qing ta eat sakae.. lol.. today ah dou brought a pooh for her fren bdae prezzie.. lol.. kawaii ne~.. ke ai~..but de pooh veri ke lian.. kena tortured by raymond.. i oso kena tortured.. he pull de pooh ear.. poor thing.. den he say so ke ai pooh de nose look like mine.. den moi face kena pinched.. poor me.. sob sob.. but nvm auntie lai hong help me scold him.. lol.. auntie so nice.. lol.. wah i watching ps i love u.. so nice.. de song for moi dial tone.. nice.. lol.. ahh.. i gt new song i like.. jin sha de.. nt bad.. lol.. k le gtg bb...

[ 我们像是两条平行线 ，永远没有交叉点... ]

Just another day @ 9:18 PM